July 13, 2016

Started studying at 4PM... I was pretty bored after 30 minutes.

I went to the bathroom and played a game of street fighter 2 turbo. I was so happy that I beat ryu on the hardest difficulty level :) I was suuuuper happy actually! but then I realized we were tied, and there was another round remaining. During the remaining round I lost, because he was really tough! Anyways the LESSON: "no matter who the opponent, there is no such thing as a guaranteed win" Which got me thinking about how I study. A lot of times I get really happy for completing a certain portion of the assignment. When the fact is: there is the whole remaining portion of the assignment that needs to be finished. A win isn't the REAL win unless you've won all the matches in the competition. And a study session isn't a study session unless you've studied everything it is you need to study.

There is another proverb I put into play. AND IT"S A GREAT ONE!:

"If you keep doing what you've always been doing, you're going to get what you've always got."

That being said, I was really unhappy with my study habits. I kept falling asleep on my bed, because the work was incredibly boring!

So thanks to my brain, it said. HEY! WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU"RE DOING!? Remember that proverb!? APPLY IT! So I did, I asked my mom for the car keys. She was like are you going to go breakdancing!? because usually I ask for the car keys for this reason, I told her NO, I'm going to go study at the university! And she was like fine. So I drove to the university nearby, they always keep their doors open 24/7, and I just parked my car, brought a bunch of papers (didn't use all of them, but I did use many!) Then I walked to this spot I remember I studied in once. And I went there and it was GREAT! I studied for 1.5 hours. So total for today is 2 hours! :D that's twice as much as I studied yesterday lol.. I know it's not much, but I'm very proud of myself, and I don't care what people think. I am happy with growth no matter how small or big. 100% growth is awesome. I'm not complaining.

 I'm going to try and go there tomorrow. I'm a little worried there may be classes there during the day... What day is it tomorrow? July 14th... Do university students have class on July 14th? Whatever, I will just find a classroom that's not being used... The library close by me is good. But york university is GREAT! I really like it. It opens at 6 AM much earlier than the library. and it Closes at 11 PM much later than the library. the only difference is, it takes much longer to get to york university. Furthermore, the library has a grocery store beside it and York university doesn't. I wish my br0ther would answer my freakin' calls. This is bananaz! He doesn't seem very reliable right now... Honestly, I'm just going to pull money out of my RRSP... He's too unreliable, at least for me.