July 17, 2016

Okay. MAYBE, I shouldn't have said I found the magic pill lol.

But I did improve A LOT!

I went from studying an hour to 2 hours a day to 4 hours a day within the past few days... So it's a very good improvement! that's 400% compared with the beginning 1 hour to the now 4 hours a day so far...

I'm hoping to reach 12 hours a day. But it really depends on how well I will stick to the schedule I made...

So I'm getting better. Just have to get EVEN better :) ... It's pretty cool!

Now it's 4:35 AM. I'm going to report back with how many hours I'm able to put into today. I have a REALLY good feeling... but I know I have to be incredibly disciplined :( ... lol... I wish I had someone to be here with me... all of a sudden. And I hope I pass. I shouldn't say I hope. Or good luck to me... Because I was listening to my past self about how I'd pass the CPA Taxation course, and I was like No luck! All skill! Gotta try hard if I'm going to make something happen. I was impressed with myself lol... <-- I'm not congradulating myself <-- which is unprofessional. But I am just impressed with my past self. That's all. Okay, I'm really tired. I also had some ground beef which I rarely do, and I feel a tad gross / sick. Afterall, it's a dead animal that I ate. also ate some dead chicken LOL! this is the reality. And I'm merely stating facts. ANYWHO...

I'll report back here with my total progress for the day! I think if I ever reach 12 hours a day, it should be sufficient. If I don't feel that it's sufficient, then I'll try to up the ante, although, that's borderline crazy! :P

It's 8:58 AM... Came upstairs... Started making hummus. Woohoo! Now, 1 hour from now it should be done! I just have to add some salt and baking soda. I'm not super hungry! But I would like some nice fruit or something... They took away my online banking *_*...


It's 3:49 PM... I'm going to have to forgo my new sleep schedule,

but that's not the biggest problem...

 The biggest problem was the above. See this statement "I wish I had someone to be here with me" I said that because I was lonely. BUT BEING ALONE IS WHAT I WANTED. If I wanted my relationship with my ex to work out or take over a portion of my life, that would've happened. I didn't. Because I got for what I asked. IT"S A TRADE OFF. I or any other candidate who had to make a similar sacrifice needs to understand it's a trade off!!!! You're trading off the time you could spend having fun with your partner to study for a better job in the future!!!! Moreover, I'm not doing this for my lover. I've been with many women so far in my life. A lot of which were smoking hot. The girl I was with last was NOT the hottest girl I've ever been with. She did NOT have the best personality ever. But when you're with someone for so long, you tend to rationalize your feelings like "omg she/he is the hottest, or omg he/she has the best personality" Let's be real. There is a billion something people on planet Earth, and it's full of people you could potentially have a relationship so NO, I do not want someone here to be with me. That was a mistake, and almost a negative statement in my eyes. That shit will bring you down! So there's no need to get down.

Here's my basketball rule: you want to go for 2 pointers, instead of 3 pointers. I won't go into to detail, because believe it or not, it's a very secret rule of my own. But I'm going to apply it.

I want to be studying in 2 minutes! So I need to get off of here. Another thing, I wanted to say was:

I don't have kids right now. But if I ever plan on having one or more. If there is even the slightest chance, that I will have a child. I need to kill it right now for them. I need to prove that I'm willing to take pain*infinity for them. So, I'm going to go prove it right now. PEACE! That alone is enough motivation to make me pass the CFE and 1,000,000 other exams just as difficult. My own child will be that precious to me. Alrighty. I'll ttyl! And I'll let u know what happens with my day. Yesterday was 4 hours of studying = completed. Today will be = 1 hour! Crap... I got so bored of doing work. I kept going on my phone.

Here's something I used to do. Throw away my phone or lock it up.

One thing I used to do to nail all my study sessions was rehearse all my values. <-- This was very meditative, similar to prayer. I remember I'd get more study sessions in when I'd do this. Time to execute :@ grrr